How beautiful are you?

Have you ever heard?

"I can never have something to do with that girl! Men, have you been to her house? It’s so dirty"

"Gosh! That girl smells rotten, she is so dirty!"

"Wow! This kitchen is so neat"

"She got very beautiful face! how come she's being so dirty?"

Kebersihan dan kecantikan saling berkait rapat. Bagi aku tiada gunanya  kelihatan cantik dan pakai wangi-wangian, make-up tebal seinci dan pakai lawa-lawa tetapi tidak tahu menjaga kebersihan terutama sekali kebersihan diri dan persekitarannya. Kalau nak tahu dia seorang yang pembersih atau tidak, lihatlah pada bilik atau tempat tidurnya. 

Allah swt memang sukakan kecantikan dan kebersihan. Wajah yang cantik itu bonus. Bagi aku, biarlah mereka yang mempunyai wajah yang biasa-biasa tetapi jika mereka menitik-beratkan soal kebersihan, mempunyai ilmu yang tinggi dan akhlak yang baik, secara tak langsung mereka akan kelihatan cantik.

"Kebersihan itu adalah separuh daripada Iman"

dan 

 "Tidak semestinya yang cantik itu bersih dan semestinya yang bersih itu cantik"

So kesimpulannya jagalah kebersihan diri ye. Okay nak sambung taip soalan peperiksaan Ummi

Wordless

Just keep it all in heart

Don't know how to express it

Give up already

*****

She's a taekwondo blue-red holder is going to take a break due to health prob 

Gonna miss all the moment

Living with scoliosis

The trouble with living with Scoliosis is that oftentimes you think you've grown to the physical discomfort and pain that comes with having Scoliosis. Then sometimes life throws you a curve ball which tests your limitations, patience and faith.

The truth is not very spectacular, it's just a pain to deal with *ironic smile* 

Earlier this week I woke up with severe pain in my neck (yes this does sound really odd, but it's true), which has not ceased since then. Malays would call it "seliuh bantal"  which basically means you'd sprained your neck while sleeping on your pillow. In other words sprain your neck in your sleep. The trouble about having a sprained neck with this Scoliosis of mine is that it causes a whole lot of other pains. Not only the neck region is throbbing (spasming), my upper curve (the upper spine recall that my spine has the S-curve) as well as the rib hump they'd removed and repaired in the spinal fusion back in 2007 are hurting as well. There are 3 basic types of treatments for scoliosis. From the observation, orthopaedic bracing and surgery.

I have so much to share but there is always so little time in a day! But I've got a piece of good news and new discovery to share with my fellow scoliosis friends. Alright, maybe this discovery is not so new for some of us out there, but it is to me (:

I walked at the park 5 days a week, 30 minutes each time. But it wasn't sufficient. My spine, and back muscles still didn't feel strong enough but dear friends, you can start with walking. Just walk. Go to the park and walk. Moved your arms in silly ways that make you feel good and ignore those evil-starers and don't stop for 30 minutes. Stretch when you've done with walking. Stretch your legs, your arms, your back. Be careful, but stretch and feel good about your achievement. Because this will be the start of great benefits. There are specific exercises to do to help strengthen the back muscles. I'm not talking about strengthening the spine or exercising your curves. What I mean is, if you concentrate on strengthening your back muscles (those muscles surrounding your back area), you can minimise discomfort and pain, breathe smoothly and you'll also find yourself feeling stronger and better about yourself.

So what is my point here? 

The point that I am trying to make is.. don't give up! 

When you have scoliosis, some days the pain can drag you down. Some days it doesn't seem as if you will ever be normal or live normally. Some days there are just so many things that you cannot do.

Fight it. Fight the pain. Exercise. Go ahead, try it (: 

To my scoliosis friends out there who are going through hard times and feeling as if normality is so much out of reach. Please have faith. Have faith in yourself. Have faith in a Higher Being (whatever your religious believe might be). Have faith, stay strong, and don't give up on the hope that one day normality will be within your grasp and in your life once again.

If I do surgery, it takes time to heal as I have to do theraphy and so on. 
Kinda waste my time ryte? :D

Beduk Diketuk

"...apabila beduk diketuk, tentulah ada yang rasa terkejut, tak senang malah ada kalanya 'bingit', namun sebaik menyedari untuk apa beduk itu diketuk. Kita akan mula memberi perhatian, mendengarnya dengan teliti dan bertindak selaras dengan mesej yang dibawanya. Suara peringatan ada kalanya tidak perlu terlalu nyaring, namun cukup sekadar dapat didengar oleh telinga dan hati. Orang yang bijaksana akan lebih terkesan oleh bisikan berbanding jeritan..."

Begitulah aku dan adik-adik walaupun dah besar panjang dan macam galah yang boleh diibaratkan seperti beduk yang apabila diketuk oleh ummi, barulah terkejut dan mula memberikan perhatian terhadap apa yang ingin disampaikan oleh ummi. Selagi tak diketuk, selagi tu tak bergerak dan lakukan perubahan. Ayat terakhir yang terpacul daripada mulut ummi kepada kami bertiga adalah

"...suka atau tidak, selagi ummi hidup, selagi tu ummi akan bercakap sebab nanti kat akhirat Allah akan soal ummi. bila ummi dah takde, korang tak akan dengar dah bebelan ummi nanti..."

(T__T)

Tales of Heart and Soul

I do love him

and

only Allah knows how hard I keep this feeling

but

biarlah saling tak berhubungan, namun saling mendoakan

(T_T)

"...cintailah seseorang itu secara diam-diam, seperti kisah cinta suci Saidatina Fatimah r.a dan Saidina Ali k.w, yang akhirnya Allah pertemukan jua. sesungguhnya mereka yang mencintai secara diam itu sedang berjihad. berjihad menentang kehendak diri. menundukkan nafsu hati..."

Advice

"Nasihat timbul atas rasa sukakan kebaikan dan kasih sayang terhadap seseorang. Elakkan nasihat-nasihat yang bertujuan memarahi dan memalukannya atau menunjukkan kepandaian diri. Nasihat yang baik adalah satu doa untuk kebaikan terhadap sahabat..."

-Sampaikan secara peribadi bukan secara terbuka-

Father and Daughter

A liltle girl and her father were crossing a bridge

The father was kind of scared so he asked her daughter :

"Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river"

The liltle girl said, "No dad, you hold my hands"

"What's the difference?" Asked the puzzled father 

"There's a big difference", replied the liltle girl

"...If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens,  you will never let my hand go...".

-Sometimes wisdom can be learnt from the smallest children-

-Your parents are a gift for you, cherish them-

I need her

What's on my mind?

Crying

Kosong                            Nothing

Useless                                                Tired

Sick                   Benci

Annoying

and

Ummi, I need you now and wanna cry on your shoulders.

I called her just now and shared with her about all the burden and in the end, there's no word I can say unless thanks for being understanding.

"...Thats what mother is for. Use the opportunity and trust given to move one step forward. Work with effort to show your ability and gain experience and knowledge. As your mum, always pray for your success and proud of my daughter. Sweetie, Allah tests us often and for every pain He gives us, is followed by rich grain. So whenever we feel that everything is going wrong, it is Allah's way to make our spirits strong. One more thing dear, relief yourself by putting Allah love above all. Only with His love and gratitude we will get the sincere love of human..."

                                     

                                                                                                                    -Ummi-

"...And whoever fears Allah and keeps his duty to Him, He will make a way for him to get out from every difficulty..." 

                                                                                     -Al Talaaq 65:2-

Remain patient, Hanan!

Don't ever give up

Keep striving!

Don't let anyone put you down and be strong!

You can get through this!

InsyaAllah

Our First Anniversary

 بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ اﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

13 JUNE? Ada apa dengan 13 JUNE? Alhamdulillah syukur ke hadrat Allah kerana sudah genap setahun aku dan rakan-rakan seperjuangan menuntut ilmu di sebuah institusi pengajian.  Sepanjang tempoh 1 tahun ini pelbagai perkara yang telah berlaku. Suka? Duka? Ye terlalu banyak.

Di IIC lah tempat aku bertemu rakan-rakan baru seperti Maya, Fatihah, Mimi, Aimi, Azlina, Nina, Hudha, Sofia, Wan, Kimi, kak Ima, kak Syawa, Biela, kak Ain, kak Dalila, Izzat dan ramai lagi serta tidak lupa juga buat rakan foreigner aku iaitu Fatemeh. Buat Fatin Asyifa, walaupun hanya 2 minggu kita berkenalan, tapi sudah seperti lama kita bersahabat. Itulah hebatnya apabila berukhuwwah. 

Di IIC lah tempat aku mencari identiti diri, mencari semangat baru selepas kegagalan dalam SPM yang lalu kerana terlalu leka pada zaman persekolahan, mengetahui apa itu sahabat, apa itu kawan dan apa itu lawan.

Sepanjang setahun di IIC

Final bermula minggu hadapan. Jadi, berusahalah dari sekarang agar kita sama-sama mengecapi kejayaan.

-Man Jadda Wajada-

My formula

 بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ اﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

My formula for living is quite simple. I get up in the morning and 

I go to bed at night. In between, I occupy myself as best I can.

 Never hate, don't worry, live simply, expect a little, give a lot, always smile, 

live with love, be with Allah. I applied eight of them to have a better life. 

Things you can do to please Allah

 بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ اﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

Learn some Qur'an

 Respect your Parents, teachers and elders

Do your prayers on time and try and perfect them

 Read stories of the Prophet (saws) and His Companions

 Learn some of the names of Allah, each day

 Ask Allah for forgiveness

 Do your homework neatly

 Make Mum and Dad a cup of tea

 Be friendly to everyone you meet

 Try learning and understanding the Hadeeth of the Prophet (saw)

 Treat others the way you want others to treat you

-Allah loves those who are always trying to please Him - so keep trying and when you make a mistake always turn to Him and ask Him to forgive you-

Looking back

 بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ اﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

Usually when people look back at the old days, they feel joy because the past was such a beautiful time for them. Their days would be full of fun and laughter, and carelessness wouldn’t be much of an issue. Those were the days for them, as they always say. As for me, however, whenever I look back, I am full of regret. It’s not as bad as it sounds though, and in fact out of all the kids my age, I was probably the most innocent. I was good at studies, and didn’t do anything immodest. I didn’t date, I didn’t humiliate people openly or anything like that. Yet I still regret it a lot. And so what is it that I regret?

There was only one thing that kept me going. Every night when the lights were turned off and my siblings were fast asleep, I would pray to Allah while lying awake in bed. I would ask Him to show me the straight path, and to help me out of my problems. My negligence of solah was my biggest concern at the time. I would ask Him this every night, InsyaAllah. On the other hand, if he or she prays regularly but continues to sin, it may mean that Allah is still not satisfied with their worship.

It was at the point that I also realized how important hijab was in my life. I understood the beauty of a woman covering herself, knowing that she is not just supposed to display herself to the opposite sex. Rather, she is a pearl, and a pearl is something not everyone should be allowed to see. In a way, I earned self-respect. I wanted to start emulating what all the Muslim women did at the time of the Prophet Muhammad peace be upon him. 

I prayed to Allah that He make it easy for me, and subhanAllah, trust me when I say this, I could feel the help of Allah throughout the entire phase of my transition.  If there are any sisters out there who think they “doubt the concept of hijab” or that they’re “just not ready”, trust me, this is one thing that you will never regret. For some of you it might be hard in the beginning, but remember that this is one thing that pleases our Lord. At the end of the day, I’ve realized all of that doesn’t matter a single bit. May Allah save us from being amongst them, and show us the right path to Jannatul Firdaus. Ameen.

"A writer shares her story about how her past didn’t hinder her from making
 a positive and empowering change in her future"

Words and Actions Should Be the Same

 بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ اﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

It’s a warm sunny day at the park and we had a picnic near the Balok Beach. While putting rice onto the plate, ummi starting her story about there once was a boy who loved eating sweets. He always asked for sweets from his father. His father was a poor man. He could not always afford sweets for his son. But the little boy did not understand this, and demanded sweets all the time.

The boy's father thought hard about how to stop the child asking for so many sweets. There was a very holy man living nearby at that time. The boy's father had an idea. He decided to take the boy to the great man who might be able to persuade the child to stop asking for sweets all the time.

The boy and his father went along to the great man. The father said to him, "O great saint, could you ask my son to stop asking for sweets which I cannot afford?" The great man was in difficulty, because he liked sweets himself. How could he ask the boy to give up asking for sweets? The holy man told the father to bring his son back after one month.

During that month, the holy man gave up eating sweets, and when the boy and his father returned after a month, the holy man said to the boy "My dear child, will you stop asking for sweets which your father cannot afford to give you?"

From then on, the boy stopped asking for sweets.

The boy's father asked the saint, "Why did you not ask my son to give up asking for sweets when we came to you a month ago?" The saint replied, "How could I ask a boy to give up sweets when I loved sweets myself. In the last month I gave up eating sweets."

I asked ummi, where did you find this story? She said, she used to story to her student at the kindergarden about 10 years ago. So the moral of this story is a person's example is much more powerful than just his words. When we ask someone to do something, we must do it ourselves also. We should not ask others to do what we do not do ourselves.

-ALWAYS MAKE SURE THAT YOUR ACTIONS AND YOUR WORDS ARE THE SAME-

Happiness comes from the Rememberance of Allah not the Prom

 بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ اﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

The Prom and Happiness

Happiness! Ah what a wonderful term, wouldn't all of us like to have that? I think it's the only thing that we need in life. How can we achieve happiness in the life hereafter after as well as in this life? Most people think, 'okay sure suffer all this life to get a reward of which we are not sure we will get as we are never good enough for Allah'. But I intend to prove that you do the get the rewards of obedience in this world and that you can get happiness even in the most direst of circumstances.

Luxury Enjoyments (proms/parties/other enjoyments)

If you are really going to the prom because it's the last time you're going to meet your classmates, then invite your closest friends to your home and have a social gathering and no one has to wear tight and uncomfortable clothing or have to show their cleavage. You can have a friendly chat. I am sure you'll treasure the memory of being with your closest friends more than being with people you never really got to know. Isn't this true happiness?

So Then What is True Happiness?

True happiness lies in being satisfied with what you have, to be contented. What's the one way to always be happy? It is THANKFULNESS. Allah just didn't create thankfulness to make our lives boring. He made it to make us happy, He cares for us. The question one must ask himself/herself is 'what do I get from being thankful?' Why does a walk in the park make you feel happy? Its because you think about nature and the good things in life and hence you think about Allah (remembrance). This is the reason why all of the religious people spend all of their time in remembrance, in Zikr, because just like you and me they want to be happy in this life as well as the life Hereafter.

Can a prom really bring you that happiness?

There you go. I have proven to you how to attain happiness in this world, through Zikr, as well as in the hereafter. I hope I have convinced most of our young Muslim readers from not going to the prom and have changed the thinking of those who did go to the prom. Even if one person changed his/her mind then I feel my work is done, for curing people of their problems makes me a happy person.

Telling the truth

 بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ اﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

I have read some article and here I am about to share with you about telling the truth is a very good habit. If you always speak the truth, you can save yourself from a lot of trouble. Here is a story of a man who did a lot of bad things, but his promise to tell the truth saved him.

Once a man came to the prophet Muhammad s.a.w and said, "Oh prophet of Allah, I have many bad habits. Which one of them should I give up first?" The prophet said, "Give up telling lies first and always speak the truth." The man promised to do so and went home.

At night the man was about to go out to steal. Before setting out, he thought for a moment about the promise he made with the prophet. "If tomorrow the prophet asks me where have I been, what shall I say? Shall I say that I went out stealing? No, I cannot say that. But nor can I lie. If I tell the truth, everyone will start hating me and call me a thief. I would be punished for stealing."

So the man decided not to steal that night, and gave up this bad habit.

Next day, he felt like drinking wine, when he was about to do so, he said to himself, "What shall I say to the prophet if he asks me what did I do during the day? I cannot tell a lie, and if I speak the truth people will hate me, because a Muslim is not allowed to drink wine." And so he gave up the idea of drinking wine.

In this way, whenever the man thought of doing something bad, he remembered his promise to tell the truth at all times. One by one, he gave up all his bad habits and became a good Muslim and a very good person.

If you always speak the truth, you can be a good person, a good Muslim whom Allah likes and favors. If Allah - our Creator - is pleased with us, He will reward us with HEAVEN, which is a place of happiness and joy.

I hate these feelings

 بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ اﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

These are feelings that I don't want to feel.

Please Allah help me to be strong,

As I know feeling like this is wrong.

You know the pain and anger that I feel in my heart,

Please take it away, make it depart.

I'm so tired and weary Dear Lord,

These feelings I cannot afford.

I want to feel alive, I want to feel free,

I want to be the best Muslim that I can be.

Please take this pain, throw it away,

I need to prostrate to You and pray.

Please Allah forgive my anger,

These feelings are from Shaitan- I'm in danger!

Please calm my heart, calm my mind,

Let me feel the peace that I yearn to find.

Thank You Allah for hearing me out,

Thank You Allah for allowing me to take the right route.

Special made for my love

Abdul Wafiy's achievement

Nur Ainaa Tasnim's achievement

Congrats to my lil brother Abdul Wafiy on your achievement. Finally u got the best student and you've completed 30 juzu' of Quran which carry you as Al-Hafiz. I am very proud of you and do the best for upcoming SPM. To my lil sister Ainaa Tasnim, I hope that you are able to maintain your achievement either in curriculum or co-curriculum and do the best for upcoming PMR. Please balance them to make your dream come true. But most of all, success is being who you are, and feeling proud of yourself for every task and challenge that you face and conquer along the way. For the rest of you, please enhance your attitude towards meaningful of life. 

-Sincerely, Along- 

Menyingkap Dahsyatnya Doa

Memang sebahagian daripada kita kadang2 merasakan, kita banyak kali berdoa tetapi Allah tidak pernah mengabulkannya. Bolehkah kita membiarkan perasaan seperti itu muncul dalam hati kita? Tentu tidak. Ini kerana Allah bergantung pada sangkaan hamba kepadaNya. Apabila kita merasakan doa kita tidak terkabul, itulah yang berlaku.

Allah Maha Mengetahui semua keperluan makhluknya dan Dialah yang lebih memahami apa yang kita perlukan dalam mengharungi kehidupan ini. Dialah yang Maha Mengatur perjalanan hidup setiap makhluk dengan segala kudrat dan iradatnya. Semuanya berada dalam genggaman kekuasaan  Allah yang tidak terbatas. Yakinlah doa memiliki kekuatan dan banyak mendatangkan manfaat.

Berdoa adalah ibadah. Ia adalah perintah Allah seperti yang dinyatakan dalam ayat berikut~

Tuhanmu berkata,"Berdoalah kepadaku, nescaya aku perkenankan bagimu"  

(Surah al-Mukminun ayat 60)

Berdoa mendekatkan diri kita kepada Allah. Dengan berdoa, kita merasakan kita memerlukan Allah dan berasa hina diadapanNya. Oleh itu kita perlu merendah diri sebaliknya orang yang enggan berdoa adalah orang yang sombong dihadapan Allah. Ayat berikut menyatakan~

"Sesungguhnya orang2 yang sombong dan enggan menyembahku kelak masuk neraka jahanam dalam keadaan hina dina"

(Surah al-Mukminun ayat 60)

Berdoa adalah zikir dan berzikir dengan mulut ataupun dalam hati adalah sebahagian daripada kaedah ataupun kunci mengenal diri dan menjadikan jiwa tenang serta tenteram. Dalam hal ini Allah berkata~

"Ingatlah hanya dengan mengingati Allah, hati akan menjadi tenang"

(Surah al-Ra'ad ayat 28)

Doa tidak sekadar menjadi ibadah tetapi ia juga menjadi otak ataupun inti ibadah. Hadis berikut menjelaskan~

"Doa itu adalah otak ibadah" 

(Imam Tirmizi)

Wahai saudara sekalian, berdoa menunjukkan jati diri. Hamba yang memiliki sifat sebagai mukmin  yang sejati yakin tidak ada sesiapa yang boleh memberikan pertolongan kepadanya selain Allah. Ramai saudaraku yang meragui kerana apabila berdoa dan mendekatkan diri kepada Allah, Allah seperti tidak mendengar luahan atau keluhan mereka. Wahai saudaraku, as i said just now, Allah bergantung pada sangkaan hamba kepadaNya. Apabila kita merasakan doa kita tidak terkabul, itulah yang berlaku. Maka, berbahagialah dengan doa.