Saturday, January 29, 2011

It's all about housemates

So it just really hit how much I am going to miss my housemate. After living with them since last December, we have connected on that level where we are like sisters now. If it wasn't for them I wouldn't have done a lot of things that I did here. We pretty much did everything together. I am definitely going to miss them. Before this, I stayed at Desaview Hostel but since semester 2, I moved to Pangsapuri Sri Batu, Kuala Lumpur. U wanna know? Because at Desaview I have to pay RM170 per month. It was very expensive for student okay. Since moved to Pangsapuri, I am paying only RM87.50. Besides affordable, it takes only 10 minutes to go to college. Okay without wasting much time, I would like to introduce to my freaking damn hot housmates.

Okay first, I'd like to introduce this girl. Her name is Raja Nabila Arif and she's from JB. I called her bella or gergirl and she's 19teen. Science comp student in semester 2. She was an athlete long time ago i mean during her secondary school. She love singing and playing guitar. Do u see the guitar on that picture? Yeah she owned it. Kakak2 called her 'Pentipu' because she love to talk talk and talk. In my opinion, I can get with her because she has something which can get through myself and I like that. She annoys me with her blur attitudes sometimes. To gergirl, u're sporting, talkative and nice one. Take care of yourself and your ehem ehem. May your relationship are everlasting. Love u gergirl - xoxo - 

Who's this gurl? Okay, she's Atyra, 19 teen, Islamic Contemporary student and  she's from Miri, Sarawak. She also can plays guitar. She's not talkative girl but I considered her as friendly girl. Her face will downcast when she has a problem but once she's happy, she will smiling till her ears. To tyra, always smiles okay. Love u tyra -xoxo-

Her name is Siti Rahmah Halim, 22 years old, Child-hood education student, from Temerloh, Pahang. She's very kind, quite humble happens sometimes only. I have a very very big space inside my stomach and starving all the time eventhough Im not too big so I loved to eat and when I'm hungry, I 'll look for her then she cooked and eat together with me. Besides, I was spoiled by her and I had assumed her as my sister. Love u kakak ima -xoxo-

She is Nur Sahwalina, from Temerloh, 22 years old, taking a course same as kakak Ima, a very small  and cute person. Everybody inside this home called her kak syawa. She loved reading novels, screamed without purpose, quite happens sometimes only and a bored person. Always said ' Hanan, akak boring la, nak buat ape eh?'. She's very cool person and I love u kakak syawa -xoxo-

She's Wan Amira, 20 years old, from Terengganu. Since we moved to new house at level 5, she rarely to be at home and now she lived with her friends. We still considered her as occupant to this house. For me, she's very kind and talkative person (:

She is Halimatus Nadia Abdul Halim but I called her Maya, 19 years old, from Bangi, Business Administration student. A small with a talkative person. She attempts to make eveybody laugh. I used to watch a korean movie using her CD. Thanks a lot. She was my roomate at Desaview and we moved to Sri Batu together. I  know her since the first day I entered college. She got very stuck up face but actually she does not. Huhu don't mad at me. Love you Maya. -xoxo-

And last, the cute one, Nurul Izzati hanni, 19 years old, from Kajang. She's not studying at IIC. Maya and her are one of best friends in this house and they like siblings which no one would separate them. For me, a really kind roomates with load-no-voice. She looks serious but actually she does not. Always treated me as her lil sister, that's her. Love you, hanni -xoxo-

Okay thats all about them. Sometimes you might wonder which one of them that I closed to? But I tell you what, I do not own the answer because let us see here and I put you into a situation. You and your best friend together and I will provide you choices. Would you rather be the one who will be shot or the one who does the shooting? Do you find the answer? No? Same goes with me here.

As long as I can get through them, it does not matter what happens. What I know about B-5-11 HOUSE does not have owned any problem. No controversy, no crippled and no abusive matters. I just love the way they are and hope our friendship last forever.

B-5-11 occupant ;

Nurul Hanan        (Hanan)
Halimatus Nadia  (Maya)
Hanni Izzati        (Hanni)
Sahwalina           (Syawa)
Raja Nabilah       (Bella)
Siti Rahmah        (Ima)
Atyra                 (Tyra)
Amirah               (Mira)

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Jauhkan rindu

Bila rindu kembali menjengah,
Menyusup datang melalui sekeping gambar,
Begitu terasa bibirku bergetar,
Begitu terasa kakiku makin longlai.

Ku lihat pada jari-jemariku,
Menggigil dalam bahang tengah hari,
Ku sentuh pada bibirku,
kering mengelupas,
Ku letakkan tangan pada dadaku,
Degupannya menjadi deras.

Ku lihat wajahku dalam refleksi,
Warnanya pucat membiru,
Tiada kilauan dalam mata,
Tiada cahaya pada wajah.
Hanya kelesuan jelas kelihatan.

Yang lain menggelar rasa ini 'cinta',
Lalu mereka hairan aku menolak 'cinta',
Tapi aku pasti ianya adalah 'petaka' ,
kerana rindu ini rindu yang memusnahkan,
Rindu ini rindu yang mencemarkan,
Kerana rindu ini rindu yang tidak halal untukku,
Kerana rindu ini boleh mengundang dosa.

Jika rindu yang sama bertandang,
Akulah insan paling bahagia.

Jika  rindu yang sama bertamu,
Akulah insan paling sengsara.

Aku tak mahukan rasa ini,
Aku tak mahukan rindu ini.

Rindu ini yang dahulu telah melalaikanku dari mengingati-Mu,
Rindu ini yang dahulu menghalangku dari kemanisan beribadat kepada-Mu,
Rindu ini yang dahulu membutakan mataku  dari melihat jalan-Mu,
Rindu ini yang dahulu membinasakan cinta suci hamba-Mu.

Jangan kau benarkan rindu ini menggigitku,
kerna aku takut dihinggapi virus cinta buta.

Jangan kau biarkan rindu ini menghantuiku,
kerna aku takut pada bayangannya,
Kerna ku tahu jatuh cinta itu,
Hanya bisa pada Tuhan,
Kerna ku tahu nafsu ini,
Sering membawa ke arah kejahatan,
Yang datang dari godaan syaitan.

Ku mohon,
Jauhkanlah aku dari 'petaka' rindu ini,
Hadirkanlah aku pada cinta-Mu,
Cinta yang kekal dan abadi.

Million of thanks

One fine day, all of us will get busy with our lives, long working hours, less friends, less meetings, rare calls, no sms, no more late night chatting, won't have time for ourselves. At such a day you'll look outside your window and see the good old memories flash u by and you'll get smile with a tears in your eyes and you'll turn back to your work thinking i wish i could go back. This message is to all my friends who helped to create such memories.

Friday, January 7, 2011

New lyfe chapter

Accept My Mistakes

Im human who always making a mistakes. Accept what I did wrong and try to do better next time. No need to punish myself forever. In fact, accepting my mistakes is the only way to make them disappear

Accept My Friends Mistakes

Maybe I got hurt by somebody. It was happens and just accept it and deal with it. People are making mistakes and if I can accept that for myself, accept it for my friends too. In the end, all I need from them is their love.

Build Self Discipline

I don’t have to wait for other people to impose discipline on me. Start early and I'll create my own discipline. Although it sounds a little bit harsh, self discipline is a facilitator for many things in my life. It’s hard to get but great to have.

Make New Friends

Reach out. Don’t be afraid. Establish new contacts. The worst thing that may happen to me is to be rejected. Well, if that’s the case, move on. The reward of having true, long-lasting friendship is worth all the potential rejection.

Start A New Diet

Me, in a vast proportion, what I eat. I'll trying a new diet would often be the only needed change for a dramatic boost of my health and energy. Don’t necessarily have to be raw food, or even vegetarian, whatever works for me.

Keep A Journal

I would write down my feelings, my ideas, my goals, my activity. Journaling is by far one of the most useful things I’ve done to change my life for the best. It works in such a silent, yet effective way. All I need is pen and paper.

Learn To Take Risks

My life may be so boring and fade because… err, I made it like this? When was the last time I tried something really difficult? When was the last time I challenged the odds doing something risky? Do it now, hanan.

Change My Work Space

Okay, clean up my desk, re-arrange furniture and add some color to that space. Make the place where my work really enjoyable. So enjoyable that work there won’t be perceived as work anymore. It will be something I love to do.

Find Reasons To Agree

Rather than disagree. I have this mindset of competition which makes constantly arguing over things. Well, stop that. I don’t have to force myself into agreement, if it’s not the case, just trying to find some reasons will be enough.

Pay Myself First

I can’t give something if I don’t have it. I can’t spread light onto others if I don’t have light from within. I can’t give wealth to others if I don’t have it for myself first. I would make myself a service and pay myself first.

Wake Up Early

This is not a habit, this is a lifestyle. Don't just wake up early without a purpose. Be early, Hanan. Be there before others. Look for opportunities and embrace them. Waking up early means keeping my eye open to every available opportunity.

Train My Focus

My focus is in fact my reality. Use it wisely. Train it constantly for it will enhance my reality in ways I never imagined. I'll keep my focus sharp as a razor blade and be prepared to experience life in fantastic shapes and colors.

Start A Blog

On whatever topic I want. Not only it will give my opportunity to create something new and valuable but it will also bring new people into my life. Blogging is far more than a hype, is a personal development tool. A very good one.

Be Better, Not Perfect

Striving too much for perfection will ruin my life. It will wipe out all those little imperfections which are making me… human. Being better, on the other side, is rewarding. Look back at  yesterday  and just say I’m better!

Try Something New

Maybe Im sad because Im bored. Have I ever thought about that? Just reach out and try something completely new. Go for a challenge, learn a new sport, pick a different restaurant or go for a comedy movie (if Im the drama type). Just try it.

Avoid Fighting

Fighting is the biggest energy leak of myself being. Trying to prove another guy wrong is so against my true nature. Im here to acknowledge life’s wonders, not to prove anybody’s wrong. They’re not wrong, just have different opinions. And that’s part of life.

Learn To Ignore

I think they should be teaching this one in schools. We’re so focused on so many topics and think we have to do so many stuff, that our life is literally clogged with stuff. It’s good to do stuff, but learning to ignore stuff is much better.

Clean Up My House

It’s fun and it’s good for me. I would make a habit out of cleaning up my house with joy and happiness. What’s outside is a mirror of what’s inside. If my house is  mess, probably my internal life is a disaster. Neat that stuff, it’s easy.

Write A Personal Mission Statement

Im here with a reason. No matter how small I feel now, how insignificant others may made I feel, I have a purpose. Take time to write my personal mission statement. It will bring light and direction into my life.


I don’t have to break the world record, or something. Just make sure Im exercise constantly. It will make me body healthier and my mind clearer. It’s also one of the simplest and most affordable ways to improve my life.

Play A Game

Any game. Just play. Like a child. I'll allow myself to do something just for fun, without any goals, pressures or deadlines. It will make me understand that everything is a game. Sometimes a little bit harder, but still a game.

Stop Being Judgmental

With others AND with me. Excessive criticism will kill my enthusiasm. And if I think this post is something I shouldn’t read in the first place, then, my friend, Im really a judgmental. Lighten up. Accept life as it is.

Smile At Least 10 Times A Day

And I mean it, start to count that. Smiling is a sign of honesty and power. Everybody can cry over a disaster but only the most powerful can take bitterness with a smile. Exercise that power. And then try to go for 20 times a day.

Understand What People Want From Me

What I can do is not always what people want from me. Clearing that confusion alone could bring an immense relief to my life. I don’t have to immediately provide what they’re wanting, but if I do, I may have some big surprises.

Live Today

Not yesterday, not tomorrow. Go for what I can do today and leave yesterday behind for good. It’s not here anymore. And tomorrow doesn’t even exist yet, so why bother. All I have is today. Don’t waste it, Hanan.

Expect The Unexpected

If there’s something unusual that happens to me, go for it. The unexpected is a signal of an opportunity. It will not always be nice, this unexpected, but whenever it’s around, magical things are happening. Wait for it. Praise for it.

Stop Being A Follower

Admiring is nice. But being admired is even better. Stop trying to fit in other people’s shoes. I should find my own path. If that means breaking up completely my lifestyle, so be it. If Im “like” somebody else I can’t be “like” myself anymore.
Okay enough until here~
I hope it will be a new life chapter in my life~
Ummi said, u have to change along and u deserved the best! InsyaAllah

Wednesday, January 5, 2011


Memang pagi nan indah itu tidak mungkin dapat digapai. Kalau bisa, pasti tidak dapat disentuh buat selama-lamanya. Daripada terus mengharapkan pelangi yang hadir hanya apabila adanya mentari, bukankah lebih baik dia melukiskan warna-warna hijau flora di bumi? Bukankah itu lebih baik dan lebih menyerlahkan satu realiti? Realiti kehidupan di dunia fana ^^

Rumput itu masih hijau~

Di saat malam menelan alam dan tiada pelangi terukir didada langit, rumput itu masih hijau~
Disaat hujan dan guruh menyentak bumi, rumput itu masih hijau~
Disaat laut sudah tidak ladi tenang dan sudah tidak lagi biru, rumput itu masih hijau~
Disaat segala-galanya mula robek, rumput itu masih hijau~

Mengapa mesti menyalahkan takdir semata-mata atas segala yang telah terjadi dalam kehidupan ini? Mengapa sehingga menyalahkan kuasa Nan Satu tatkala kehidupan tidak seindah yang diimpikan?

Mudahnya kita lupa pada dosa~
Mudahnya kita lupa pada neraka~
Dan mudahnya kita lupa pada Yang Maha Pencipta~

Aku yakin, dimana-mana pun bahagia itu tetap ada seandainya kebahagiaan itu dijaga dan disuburkan dengan cara yang benar, kebahagiaan itu tetap akan subur mewangi dan terus menghijau sepertimana hijaunya rumput di dada bumi. Walaupun tempatnya rumput itu dibawah, menjadi hamparan yang dipijak-pijak manusia dan haiwan, namun rumput itu tetap hijau. Rumput yang hijau, terus mewarnai dunia dengan warna damai itu biarpun berbagai ujian tempias mengenai dirinya.
Namun, ujian daripada panas mentari terus menyerlahkan warnanya. Dan ujian hujan yang menimpanya menyuburkan akar-akarnya. Apa jua pun yang dihidangkan kepadanya, rumput itu tetap hijau... ~
Selagi Allah mahu rumput itu terus begitu kerana itu fitrah hidupnya.

Aku juga mahu terus begitu. Diberilah ujian hidup apa pun, aku mahu terus tegak berdiri. Aku mahu terus melawan segala yang membuatku sengsara. Aku mahu terus mendakap bahagia itu selagi mana aku mampu bahagia. Aku mahu bijak bermain dengan warna-warna kehidupan. Aku tidak mahu terus lemah dan kalah. Setiap insan disisiku, adalah kekuatan untuk aku terus berdiri. 

Namun andai nanti aku harus tinggal sendiri lagi, aku yakin aku mampu menghadapinya. Aku mahu menjadi rumput itu yang tidak pernah kalah dan terus menghijau serta fitrahnya telah tertulis, rumput itu tetap hijau~

"Barang siapa yang menghendaki pahala didunia saja (maka ia rugi), kerana disisi Allah S.W.T ada pahala dunia dan akhirat. Dan Allah Maha Mendengar lagi Maha Melihat" - An Nisa 4:134